I think I want to give up should I?

I have truthfully honestly lost my lust for life, you know the eff that everyone now a days seem to have. I honestly believe right now this is the lowest point of my life. Where I am losing everything and on the way picking up things that are not honestly mine. This is the time in which I have to stand on my own to feet; I have done this before and do not get me wrong it has been easy. But I never had to do it while everything around me is falling apart; in which I feel less of a human more like dirt. I know times will get better, if I make it though these days of hardship. But will I make it? Will i honest get to say "I had it hard, and I made it." I hope I do.... But till this day I ask what did I do to deserve so much pain I wish I could take it back. All my friends have decided to leave me, the guy I love I do not think he loves me back, I can not get into school any longer; this is not me I feel so lost and out of place in life now.